Meandering

Acrylic on Canvas
36 x 18
$444

I very rarely do abstract pieces anymore, but my therapist wanted to do a session where I freely painted. This was my first painting after losing everything and preparing to start over. I used brand new paint, brushes, and easel for this. I didn’t change anything after the session, I wanted to leave it encapsulated exactly as it was.

I painted this intuitively and instinctively, revisiting my old palette from around 2018-2020 before my red phase began. my therapist helped me analyze and interpret it, and that’s where the name came to me.

It felt like a combination of water and air. I felt Venus and Neptune here, and Mercury as well. After the session I kept finding myself wanting to do more to it, to change the aesthetic. but I had to remind myself that I was not painting an aesthetic, I was painting a feeling.

I said “I know they say the only way out is through, but sometimes you have to meander”. it felt simultaneously heavy and light. Some of the drips feel heavy and weighed down, but there is levity here. There is still softness. There is still glory.

painting this felt very free and flowing. It was the perfect dance between my left brain and my right. I always have my art very visualized before I go in with the brush but this was not the case this time. I just squeezed the paint out of the tubes and went for it. I felt very reconnected to my art, like the muse hit the reset button for me.

The path I am currently on is not what I had in mind for this point in my life, but I am making the most of it, meandering.

If you would like to adopt this very special piece of art and are in the Phoenix valley area please email me at casslilithart @ gmail dot com or DM me on Instagram at @ casslilith for local pickup if preferred.